frog



"What are you afraid of more? Man or frog?"- This stranger asked
"Hurm, man i suppose. But with God's will, fear will become a strength"


Cewah! I'm good in telling craps am i? Frog? I bet he read my entry before in my blog. I said that I'm so afraid of frog but i have a frog soft-toy and i love it so much. "Is this stranger is my silent reader?" I wonder inside. I was quite happy because i didn't think that i can have one. My blog is a total crap. haha


"Is it? What is cute to you? Is frog cute?"
"Erk. Is there any other option? Frog is disgusting" 



"Weird. You put a frog on ur blog"- He added. Curious 
Wow. I'm good in making a hypothesis. He does read my blog. Lulz. 
"Weird. You are asking me a stupid question thus lead me to become even dumber"
another words of confused, silly me in choosing the right words.lulz
"I have my privilege to not answering the question isn't it? You may proceed to another question or you may go to sleep"





Hurm, I was so cold towards him back then. I dont know why, but maybe this might be the reason why he had falls for me afterwards. The frog issue is a secret. There's only one person knows why, and of course, I wont tell him the reason behind the frog's story. 


[•] another attempt failed



"Dear mountain, sorry for the delay. The one and only light is ignoring me. I'll try to look for some other lights. For sure, You'll be seen soon."




God, makes the dream comes true


[•] the present 2 | shock news



"Hello Serene. I got a good news. There's someone knows him. He is real"



A phone call from my friend, Crow. I'm thanking him for giving me such a very good news after being in a wonder for months. There's nothing can make me happy more than this news. A light. I can see a light. Dear God. Please let the light stay shine. I want to see mountain again.



I try to contact that person afterwards, lucky me I can get through the line though he is not on the line. I'm still waiting for this person's reply. My only hope. My one and only light. 

#time travelling 5 | words of wish





And even until now, I'm still wishing the same. Hoping that your days and nights will be surrounded by beautiful dreams. And I hope, your wish is still to protect my days and nights. 


the game 2



A nonsense game to others, but it is a treasure to me. showing the stupidity, answering the ridiculousness. I see these as a beautiful memory. There are more than 150 questions in total, a week to answer, and of course  few Q-As are very stupid which can make me LOLed and facepalm-ed every time i read them. But, i'll save those to myself and keep the others here as my treasure to share. 


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Imagine that ,you are a Sailormoon with your comrades, in a mission to save earth from the criminal, unexpectedly, one of your comrades is threat to death by the supervillain, but a victim trap in a room that will explode in any minute, who will you save?
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I'm Sailormoon~! I'll save myself first. I'm a princess remember? kahkahkah. 

In sailormoon's plot, she always save her comrades first. Then with magic, all the victim will automatically saved.




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Why are you wearing purple raya clothes three years a row?
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It give me a super natural power so I can detect a handsome guy in a minutes. kahkahkah. joke! I just love it. any problem with that?





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Nope. Purple are soft. And u look gorgeous in it (oops. I shouldnt praise you that much. ok. Q. sun shines hard today, but do you prefer rain or what whether do you prefer actually?
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Haha. Thank you. I'm ok with today. But I do love rainy days more. It makes me feel alive.




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What is commitment to you?
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Hurm, I wonder. As a super hero. I need to save the world isnt it? Yes. that is my answer. It is my responsibility to make sure earth is not in danger




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I'm a second bumi's (which means a non-mus), were differentiated by our religion even we are the bumi's while malays are the 1st class bumi's. whats your opinion if real 1Malaysia is implemented where malay and other races/religion were given a fair quota
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Er, I dunno. I admire how Indonesia & Thailand control their nationality. There are no such Chinese or Malays. They all Indonesian, they are all thailand's and speak their mother tongue fluently. I'm trying my hard for not becoming a racist. Luckily I can do that.


Yes! I agree. We can built our country base on love, trust & justice.





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Would you like to have a dinner with me, which i cook by myself?
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If you insist. why not? Its free anyway. Thank you for offering me. It will be my pleasure




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Do you prefer a guy who smokes or a guy who do not?
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A very clean personality of course. But guy who smoke looks cooler. Yes because they'll going to get 'cold' earlier. lulz






to be continued

#time travelling 4 | declaration



The moment we declared our love, is the happiest day in our life. Being together, loving each other. Like there's only two of us living in this world.




Serene : "You are mine now *devilish laugh*" 

Endy : "You are mine too *angelic laugh*"

Serene : "You are seriously mine."
Serene : "Dear God. Do bless us."
Serene : "I'm so into him." 
Serene : "And I heart him more & more & more"

Endy : "You are seriously mine too. And I'm so into you"




All we have in mind is to stay together forever. And we forgot that God can do everything, He can give us love, He, can also give us doom.  


#time travelling 3 | secret


"What are you doing sayang? Still chatting with ultraman?"-Endy ask me



A secret. A secret that has been perfectly sealed. A secret that makes you feel resentment. I hope that  I dont have to hide this secret from you. And forever makes you feel at ease when you were still with me. Somehow, I do feel regret. 


the game


It has been 6 months since the 1st time we started our conversation. I treasure every single word that bonding us together. It is the start. The introduction. The beginning of everything. The get-to-know-each-other.


Our conversation begin with a game. A game of questions and answer. And the game is start with the idea of;  people can see your personality from the way you asking questions and the way you answering the questions. words, it shows everything. so beware of your saying. cz if you can create a friend by your statement. you, might as well can create an enemy (me, 2011)




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"If someone comes to you, and propose you, will you accept it? (He is your friend who hang out with you)"-He started the game.
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"Hurm, I dont think there's such person among my friends. But if it does exist, it will be my pleasure to accept, IF he really shows his willingness to accept me the way I am & will care, will love only me for the rest of his life. Really hope I can open up my heart for such person."-I answered. And this is honest.




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"Life ain't about romance. Agree?"- The 2nd Q.
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"As for my logic. I do agree. But as for my very fantasies imaginative affected from sailormoon series, i'm hoping for something very romantic & so like fairytale. KAHKAHKAH."



My answer hit me back now. Yes, my love story is so like a fairytale. And I pray hard to make it comes true.  If i know this would happen, I definitely wont hoping for something unreal. 





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"Are you better than your past or do you want to ask Doraemon to lend you a time machine? If so, which time will you choose to go back?"
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I'm good with the way I am now & i'll make sure that I'll be a better person now & then. With Allah's will. So there's no need for a doraemon."



but I want a Doreamon now. because i want to be with the person that makes me feel alive.





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"Is it fair to judge people by not knowing the exact plan and the whole overview; but by judging them by the surface?"
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"Nope! Totally disagree. But sometimes we can't control ourselves from having this dirty thought"





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"Man, are given a quota to marry 4 women in the same time. What is your opinion if man apply this advantage in before-marriage relationship? (which means he is having a relationship more than a woman where he has girlfriend but the others are spare-parts?"
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A very serious Q i guess. That time, I didn't know that he was a non-muslim. He might be curious in muslim's polygamy system though he already learned Islam for years before he converted afterwards. 

"what is the condition to be a good husband in a polygamy? Is to be fair isn't it? How can a girlfriend & a spare-part stand on a same level since a spare-part is not a girlfriend? Poor that spare-part. Being played by irresponsible creature."-I answered. 

i don't know whether my reply really breaks his curiosity in islamic polygamy system or not. But i hope it does.






And i miss this game

[•] the present 1 | the tower




i'm staring from far
at the infamous purple twin tower
that proudly stand on the very peak point
slowly i come over
parking my car at the very close parking lot
i'm taking a deep breath
the same air that you ever inhaled
i am now standing at your place
heart start to race
my eyes become teary
all i have in mind is a hope
a hope that we can bump each other


i walk into a very empty corridor
few people are focusing on their books
ignoring my existance as i look like i am one of them
i study every faces that i bumped into
hoping to see the familiar features
and the result is nothingness
i glance every walls
expecting to find some boards of notice
and yes i found few
i study every single alphabert that appear before me
no words lucky to captivate my eyes
i realize that my first attempt is failed
i feel dispirited
"maybe there's no luck for me today"- i said


and now
all i can do is to cry
in front of a peaceful lake
alone






#time travelling 2 | his wish



"Mencintai seseorang hanya kerana Allah"
"I wish I can love someone because of Him"



That's what he always said before we fall for each other



and the conversation continue




My cold reply brings him to another question.
"Is it worth to step on your pride?"- he asked

Owh damn! How should I reply him? I am so afraid of stranger. I dont know where did I get the idea that this stranger is a he, but I was pretty sure that he is a he. and I am kind of allergic to these he species thanks to my girls school.

"If I need to step on it for the sake of helping world, why not?"
My answer is referring to my passion to my childhood cartoon, Sailormoon.


"Helping world? So you are worth of a superhero?"
He really can make a cold joke. hurm. I laugh.





"kehkehkeh. oh i wish to. haha"






i start to loosing up our tight conversation as I hate being in any awkward situation. Laugh will break it. That is my believe


the first



A stranger ask me this;
"Life is discrete, continuous and vulnerable;
thus, make it evergreen, like the sounds of Pachelbel's"



This is something that my stupid brain cannot catch, so I ignored. I don't even know who is Pachelbel. I wonder why this stranger suddenly ask me this. Realizing that he is being ignored, he later ask me another question.



"Dark Heart, do you lose your pride?"
Hurm, mad because I didn't answer his question I guess.

"OMG. I step on it! Thank you for telling me this" - I replied. Cold



"Dark Heart, still rain inside or the moon shines already?" -another question? i mumbled inside. But i do swayed a bit, how come a stranger can be so concerned about my feelings.

"Thank God. He created rainbow after a rainy day. Moon? It's too bright outside. Could not see it. Tonight probably, moon will proudly shine and entertain our night. But I bet, it is not a full moon." -I'm talking weather. haha.




The very first conversation we have made. He called me Dark Heart as I always telling myself that I have a very dark heart.


#time traveling 1 | warning



I'm driving my time machine
travel into our timeline
and my eyes catch this






"It is not wrong for you to curious"
"But it's wrong for you to fall for a silhouette"






sounds like a warning letter to me


the starter


"silence is also a melody. tell your heart that the silence is a sound of peace & calm. then the heart can interact with your lips. to make a little grin thus can make others smile. that is so romantic isnt it" - Serene kept telling her self this


"metaphors"-Endy said.
"you are full with metaphors"- adding him again

"when you are feel lonely
try to think that loneliness is actually a very beautiful melody
means your happy memory will entertain you"- i replied

"agreed"-Endy



this is how we start. but this is not the first time we met. 


character two : the mountain



i'm a prince coming from earth
a cancerian cum virgo (registration issue)
the owner of the number seven
namely as mountain in Hebrew
known as endy


Eskimo: "If I did not know about God and sin, would I go to hell?"
Priest: "No, not if you did not know."
Eskimo: "Then why did you tell me?"



life without faith is equal to the earth without a sun.
the contradictions crushing me to pieces,
yet i awake to what worth more.
for a faith that can lead me to heaven's door.
for a life that i cherish for.




for the very first step in the blog world, i'm ranting,
i'm the son of mr J,
and the seventh soul existed in the family


character one : the miracle



i'm a princess coming from the moon
a cancerian
the owner of the number oneoseven means miracle
known as serene


"saya berkuasa bulan dan saya sedang menantikan putera endymion yang menaiki pegasus putih untuk menjemput saya"- thats what i said


miracle never promise me to live happily ever after
rainbows, shooting stars, butterflies,
they are just overrated
but they can make me smile at least
while reality cant


prologue


there was a time
a certain guy
call this certain girl
as dark angel
as she has a dark labyrinth heart
with a face of an angel




it was a very sad story