[•] the beautiful house of the death



of all things had happened between us
regret never come into my sight
every little pain i ever felt
is the proof that the heart i once gave
is still warmly living inside
the memorial of the beautiful remembrance
is still bloomed with flowers and fragrance
by means of the visitor to this city of the death
is still exist
for past few months
this place is still cherished
with the laughter of our memories
and a year has passed
since the first time
the mountain and the miracle
have been granted a permission to meet
and falling in love together
and the tears of love is still falling
suffer from being in love
is the most beautiful virus
ever infected
the saddest part is the virus is now slowly cure



i'll come again
we'll meet again


Birthday gift

The house of loves
A forever in love together.
I kill you because I'm so in love with you.
pfft


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Thank you Melissa
for decorating my beautiful house

The confession of love. The revealed of the tragedy.

Endy : Someone is cutting her heart into two
Endy : There's an empty hole inside me.
Endy : And the other half is being cut 
Endy : Seems to fit the empty hole.


After Serene's confession of how she had being blinded before she reached her 30's, Endy made a statement. A sudden statement that really makes Serene lost her words. 


Serene : I thought it was a non-existence space. 
Serene : It can be seen but it can't be touched. 
Serene : So the other half of her heart
Serene : Crushed on the floor instead. 
Endy : It can be touched.
Endy : Try to put the heart into it's place.


Serene paused. She got shivered as she realized there is something creepy on Endy's words.


"Would you be my unintended?"-Endy asked.



There he goes. Serene understand well what he is going to say. 'Unintended'. A song title by Muse " A story of a person coming out of depression because they have recently found happiness from love, and they now wish to see their life through to the end". It is one of her favorite masterpiece. And She knows, Endy's found his happiness by saying those words. Serene is hardly can breath, she wanted some specific clarification from Endy. She is now puzzled. She stand on earth yet she can't feel the ground. "Am I flying?"-she asked herself. 


Endy : I know you understand that.
Serene : But, 
Serene : we signed a 4 years virtual contract aren't we?


A 4 years contract that controls us from betraying our friendship. (refering the previous entry)


Endy : I'm signing another contract
Endy : to put the heart into the non-existence space. 
Endy : So that it won't break.
Endy : So that it won't crush on the floor.
Endy : And let it safe inside me
Serene : Endy, I'm sinking, deep into an unknown space.
Endy : Then, sink into the non-existence space.
Serene : It is a very unsure place
Serene : And I'm not very sure whether it is darkness or it's a light.
Serene : But it is indeed give me warmness
Endy : I can't assure you the light nor the darkness
Endy : But I assure you the comfortance
Serene : Can this sinned dark heart fit in there?
Endy : It suited the most
Serene : Is there any other words better than "I do" to answer you?
Endy : Say that "I would love to be ur unintended"


She paused. But, she is then answered. Too slow that she can't even listen to her voice. She is so nervous, plus the excitement that she never experienced before, a confesion of love.


"I would love to"-Serene replied. Endy smile. Serene shy.
 


Endy : Your heart is safe in me now.
Serene : I need to hide my face under my pillow
Endy : Nope, hide behind my back.


She feel like in heaven. Having someone else back to cover her. A shoulder that is now hers. A place that she can call as home. A person that she can say "I'm yours". A reason for her to say "Hello, I'm taken".


Endy : I can sense your heart is strongly alive inside me.
Serene : Heh. You are so confident arent you?
Endy : Confidence enough to tell myself that I fall for you
Endy : A sweet tragedy
Serene : A betrayal of friendship
Endy : I'm a traitor. 
Serene : I thought it was me
Endy : Both of us did.
Endy : And that makes it a sweet tragedy.


Tragedy. We called any friendship betrayal as a tragedy. "I will now pronounce you, boyfriend and girlfriend". pfft.


"You may be not be my first. But my heart is full of you, now and no one else. I really fall for you. Thank you for falling for me too"-Serene.

"Thank you to let you heart transferred into me and make me full of you, for just you. You are inside my heart. Dont be scared. I'm yours. When you feel the coldness, I'll be your comforter to warm you. When you your heart covered by the darkness, I'll be your light to brighten you. Dear God, thank you, for the Miracle that You had granted me. And I'm no longer a heartless. I'm taken."-Endy.



So this is how the sweetest tragedy of Mountain and Miracle happen

16 | 09 | 2011

Happy Birthday to you
You were born in the zoo
Like a monkey and kangaroo
Happy Birthday to you


It is such a waste when you know how to play birthday song but the birthday person can't listen to your play. It is sad, when you thought that you could spend the day together but it ended up you are alone looking at the time ticking until the day's end. It is tearful, when you have been dreaming days and night, the celebration of this coming day but the day doesn't give any damn of how it should be celebrated.

Looking at the moon, it is not perfectly full, but the shine is still so bright. The brightness that give people hopes. The light that guide people in a darkness. The beauty that makes people dazzled. I'm holding my hands, wishing to the moon light, hoping the missing person sharing the same sight, embracing the same dream, fantasizing the same thought.

I'm glad that we have been met. I'm gratified that you were born. I'm pleased that you were ever exist in this very short life. I'm happy that we have shared our beautiful memories together. I'm thanking God for His creation. And for this very day, I'm wishing you a Happy Birthday and have a blast, this year and upcoming years. Thank you for being born. 

#The day



The day we hooked up together was the day you were being thrown out from your house, the day you were being an orphan and the day you got a new home by being adopted by someone and being loved by the one. 

"Life isn't being too cruel, cause I've been granted a miracle, a serene to keep me in peace, who turns to a cloud to suck my sadness and bring down the rain to give me rainbow. such a sweet tragedy i couldn't resist."-Endy


#A Pray For The Angelic Demon


To the dark labyrinth heart.
May the one above us keeps you safe.
Even the upcoming obstacles confronting you.
Face them with a little grin.
And give your best shots.
I'm praying for you, from far.
Separated by the South China Sea.


-Endy-



Serene : Fuuuh~ South China Sea. Heh. The distance is too far. I bet there will be so many obstacle on it's way to reach that labyrinth heartless angelic demon

Endy : It may be too far. But, once the wall of your dark heart fall, nothing can stop its way to reach that labyrinth heartless angelic demon.



The wall has already falls. So there's nothing can stop to reach me. 
And how about yours?


#Nickies


The Great Wall of Serene
Angelic Demon
Dark Heart
Dark Labyrinth Heart
Angemon


"Did I accidentally gave you many names"-Endy asked me
"I never gave you any didnt I?"- Serene replied

"Chipsmore. You called me Chipsmore before"-Endy




And you still do like to be a Chipsmore, and forever do. But the different is, you will never going to see this chipsmore again. Because it has already been eaten by the cruel mist. 

'Now you see it and now you gone'-Chipsmore's ads.